I am so selfish an so ungrateful

•July 17, 2012 • Leave a Comment

I have been thinking how it would be to live rich without cares , chores, people to pick up after me, cook and clean.  I would have the day to fritter away sitting outside sipping coffee (a never ending pot) on the veranda watching the gardeners magically transform my yard.  The dog could run endlessly with the fence to protect her from cars

I could have ladies over for lunch and they could stay for happy hour.  Some would have other plans but for those who did not would also stay for a great dinner prepared by my cook.  Everything would be beautiful and spotless; the furnishings would be tasteful and solid (rather than Wal-Mart’s

Children could come by and play in the yard and even go for pony rides.    It would be a big while house with several porches especially in front of the bedrooms for early morning or late evening chats.  I would have a house full of family and laughter would abound as well as love.  God’s beauty would be everywhere in the house and on the grounds.  His love would also abound.

Meanwhile it is back to the same old place and same old grind with only my helper doggie and me doing whatever I can to bring love close to me

excuse me did I die and go to hell over night?

•July 13, 2012 • Leave a Comment

Has the whole world gone mad-  I think if you are not a drinking person you might consider taking to the bottle it might make more sense the choices and bedfellows who have joined forces.  I think that the book “A Brave New World” might make more sense about now and Soma would take away any reasonable questions or uprisings against the rulling class.  One thing that lingers in the back of my mind is if genetic alterations were done who had kept the highest level for themselves?

“+It truly seems like someone has their hand on the bottle of Wealth and Power elixir

FAMILIES can be supportive or rejecting

•July 12, 2012 • Leave a Comment

All that I have done and given for my parents and own children anave thim write me off and why?

You must listen to your heart that is where your answeres lie in your heart.  Love does not hold a record of wrongs, love is patient and kind.

things I love continued

•July 12, 2012 • Leave a Comment

my computer jammed or the website?

Being a totally sensual person my joy is expeienced through all of my senses.  Sight, smell, hearing, taste, and feeling (both inside and out).  All of memories can return when certain smells are tickling your nose,  a favorite song or sound like  gulls at the oceas, The taste of Lemon ice eam etc.  It is said the verve that triggers memories runs thru the same circuit in the brain and it is for this reason this happens.

Now I have five pillows on my bed and I think I will go to macy’s for men’s cologne samples (familiar ones of course.)  I will sprinkle one on each pillow to see if it generates dreams of past loves,  Aramis is a definite for the one man in my life I really loved,  Lily of the valley for my grandmother, channel for my mom, old spice for my grandfather and musk for another old friend.  I think that could be a fund experience.

I will let you know.

Things I love…

•July 11, 2012 • Leave a Comment

Big white puffy clouds

beautiful sunsets

sitting on the deck when the sun is setting

Lightening bugs

the wet and shiney leaves after a shower and the smell of wet dirt

canada cool spells in a hot summer

The clock being turned back- the darkness early to me is like a comfortable blanket

Campaign money amounts are simply obscene

•July 11, 2012 • Leave a Comment

It would seem that any candidate running for office who also promises to be “a man for all people” is either an idiot or a liar.  To boast of Mitt Roomney having raised over 30% more that Obama is just nauseating.  Again I think any backer should match dollar for dollar to help feed the hungry or give shelter to homeless families.  It smacks of The Devil and Daneil Webster they are selling their soulds in exchange for power and fame not to mention money.

Will power vs. won’t power

•July 10, 2012 • Leave a Comment

It would seem that I have so much wiil power and not a lot of won’t power.  I say      I won’t but yet I do so – have I been a major liar of sorts.  I must be a disgrace to God  I must    be a test case for his patience and his love – if I were him I would have pushed me inot the  “go to hell Pile”  sertiously I am a failure with the words that come from my  mouth and the        contrary actions of my person.  Maybe I should  go into politics I acn say a bunch of promises and not follow thru on them

I cannot escape my inner child

•July 10, 2012 • Leave a Comment

 

I am embarrassed to say that I must be guilty of indirect child abuse by neglecting my inner child’s needs. I find myself seeking approval from all sorts of people most who are tolerant of behavior. Childlike I take my paintings to the Church to show my friends and some I do not really know. They must think me desperate for approving “at a boys” and truly I guess I am. Living alone (almost- the housemate does not count he is gone a lot) makes me a little stressed and since the dog does not say much about my outlandishness she does grumble under her breathe. Since I retired she has assumed the quiet side of a conversation much like a husband who “yes dears” your babbling. I have recognized that being a good listener is truly the best half of a conversationalist and she has that down pat. She even turns her hear as if trying to understand my incessant chatting. Church volunteering is a treat since I get the opportunity to babble for four hours to whoever will listen. When I worked in the area of corrections I used to say that I had a captive audience. I did! They would just smirk.

Pickles -a whole jar

•July 8, 2012 • Leave a Comment

Last night I ate the whole jar- coul I be pregnant at 68 without equipment to even carry one?

Naw…but Claussen put out some awesone garlic pickles and they are like peanuts to me.  You just cannot eat one!

Just wanted to say good morning to the world of blogging and wish you all good things- I have to get into the shower and ready for church.  I could be happy here playing games on Facebook or Big Fish but I would not feel right without going and thanking Him for everything of course I cannot physically get on my knees but -well I could but getting up gracefully is another matter.  I feel like a Rice Krispy ad going up and down all I hear is snap, crackle and pop!

 Later for this got to get in the shower- i am not even drying  my hair it will be cooler that way.

Buy a political office…

•July 7, 2012 • 1 Comment

The amount of money funneled into political campaigns is disgraceful!  It is symbolic of a baited hook to the winner.  Once in office they have a huge debt to repay.  I truly there should not only be a cap on such spending but also a law that says the money spent should be matched dollar for dollar to put toward feeding and or housing  homeless.  What has become of this country, greed is the name of the game for 1% of the population.  Control over our elected officials converts the promises into lies or at least severe exaggerations.  Politicians are mere puppets and marionettes who talk, walk and dance to the tune of their backers.   Can they honestly believe they can make a difference or is it delusions of grandeur?  Are we to really swallow these statements made during a campaign?

I would like to know if you agree.