I am the reigning queen of giving too much and no ability to stop.

•June 18, 2012 • Leave a Comment

I tried telling a fellow parishioner about my situation and she stepped down and bowed to my taking her place.  Then the second woman and she started yelling at me(nicely) and saying “You have got to change your ways and stand up for yourself”!  While I know they are right I am such a coward and keeep trying to take baby steps only to revert backwards- you know one step forward and two back.

You can address me as your Majesty

Dilemma

•June 18, 2012 • 1 Comment

Last year my brother stayed with me for three months and he caused me some big expenses.  When his $50,000 partial divorce settlement came thru he packed up and went to Virgin Gorda for the winter.  I had his new Macy purchases left in my house (dropped from disgrunteled “girlfriend”)  This was in Oct.  they were in my garage and for 8 months nothing.  I tried to contact him about the mail and his belongings and his comment was get rid of it & send the mail back.  Being a scorpio I have the capacity to be vengeful.  I donated his new $500 worth of purchases to the church thrift shop to sell.  Now he is reaching out and after about three weeks of communicating would like to come and live here and oh by the way do you have my clothes and suitcase and legal papers?

What should I do?

Since water has seeped into the basement and caused moldd and mildew I thought I might just claim it damaged and thrown out- while I do not like becoming confrontational it would be an easier way to go but it still would not answer living here.  I guess I will need to tell him the real deal.  He offered to pay me something “but it would not be$400 since I cannot afford it”!  He is still awaiting $208 K from his ex’s retirement and the half of the $1 million or more house they mutally bought.  He goes thru money like x *@!* thru a tin horn.

Candid camera missed their opportunity…

•June 15, 2012 • Leave a Comment

THis was sent to my buyer( it was an experience from hell)

sent the food processor and I thought it was missing the stem but it was complete.(thank God)  It occured to me that I should mention I wiped it down with windex and as I am awaiting cataract surgery my ability to dlean it as well as I would have liked to and for this I sincerely apologize.  If you could have seen me trying to carry and post this heavy item to PO only to find that a liquor box is not acceptable so I had to engage in a struggle to buy a box and oh tape and bubble wrap which was bad enough but trying to open the prepackaged liquor box and re package was just a nightmare and should have been on America’ funniest videos.  The new box kept trying to jump off the counter, the tape kept getting tangled and it was just an embarrassing event.  Others in line were watching this venture and I was holding them up.  Finally the PO woman helped me to package it.  I am very sorry I had not just gone to the UPS Store and had them do it-less aggravation and probably cheaper too.

Happiness

•June 15, 2012 • Leave a Comment

I am in search of happiness and peace.  I am smart and know a lot about what to do but it seems the spirit is willing and unfortunately the flesh weak.  I profess to be a Christian and yet I cannot let go of “ancient history” and move on.  For 69 years I have lived with my mistakes and while I can forgive others I am extremely critical of my own actions and will not let them go.  If I am fortunate enough to live another 20 years then I am going to need to start today to reformulate my actions and love “myself”.

Doing too much to help others…

•June 13, 2012 • Leave a Comment

I have allowed my housemate to share my auto and it is now becoming a royal pain.  He assumes too much.  He has left me without gas and has planned to stay over with his girl friend without even asking or notifying me of his plans.  It is certainly my fault and after six months I can see why he is single.  What I do not understand is why she does not say anything about the use of my car.  I am really a wuss.  I get myself into these situations without seeing what would be coming next.  Now I am annoyed and I feel that soon the straw that broke the camels back is coming.

He was going to cut the grass but I have not seen any attempt to do it so I had to hire someone to do it.  The garbage, lawn and snow shovelling were part of the rent and that was cheap.  But I am getting the wrong end of the stick.

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Facebook

•June 12, 2012 • Leave a Comment

I have been thinking that Facebook should have some protection for minors using it to vent or meet people .  My granddaughter at age 15 had a “boyfriend who was nineteen but ‘looked 34’?”  Her mother finally put a stop to it and things became very ugly. I would not let her be a friend due to the comments she and her friends made-I am not a prude and have a colorful vocabulary as well but I prefer to keep myself in check.  It was embarrassing to see the things they wrote.  In some cases like hers she retired to her room and did not interact with the family but basically lived in cyber space until mom took the computer/internet away.

Things I must keep in mind -Thoughts I wrote to myself for days like today:

•June 12, 2012 • Leave a Comment

 

  • Set ongoing list of goals whether for cleaning your home or your life
  • Recognize your progress and give yourself the credit and praise-do not wait for others
  • Keep journal for reflection of growth and direction for the future
  • Recognize your physical or mental limitations but do not allow them to prevent you from completing
  • Outline work to be completed and break down into smaller units.  For example: clean the living room, then subdivide those areas as A),B), C) etc . 
  • Develop a mind set of “yes I can” then use your brain to work out how it can be done rather than allowing yourself to say “no I can’t”
  • Give God thanks for everything whether good or not and whether big or small
  • Remember that things can seem overwhelming if looked as a whole but if broken into smaller units once achieved add up to a job done
  • The more you accomplish the more momentum and motivation you will have
  • Recognize your own self worth and use your creative thoughts to reach goals

My Mom (poem which is true too)

•June 12, 2012 • Leave a Comment

She sits in her chair beside the phone

Day after day she sits there alone

She waits for the phone to finally ring

Then when it does, she cannot find the damn thing!

We look high and low-

Where oh where did it go?

Of course, once we find it there is nobody there-

In fact it was beneath her, right there on her chair.

The ringing goes on but where can it be

Oh! Of course, it is there on the TV!