Reflections of life in the past year
I look at my photo history and realize I have been blessed in so many ways. Yet it also makes me sad. Where did my life go? I had money and looks and still I chose to take it all for granted. Today I look around and wish I had planned better. If I had money I would happily spend it beautifying the yard; trimming shrubs, clearing old heavy willow tree limbs and tending to my flower beds. I guess my motivation left in July with my daughter and kids when they moved to Arkansas. Even with it all;–the yelling& fighting between siblings. I guess I would be happy to have them back. They worked very hard around the house keeping the grounds up. They even got a gazebo like screened out door shelter. We were able to sit in the yard without feeding the mosquitos.
Last year marked many losses and changes:
- Mom died
- Carol and kids moved out
- Dave my brother came and stayed for three months
- Dave left for the Caribbean and became very hateful in the process
- I got a housemate
- I was interviewed and could have gone to work thru an agency but I was turned down for malpractice since I had a law suit pending (2006)
- I lost my license for three months and incured about $3-4000
This year has brought closure to many things
- My divorce finalized
- I went back to driving
- The lawsuit was dropped
- I am waiting to hear about malpractice decision I pray I can go to work that would provide the extra money to do things here
- My brother reached out in need
Half of the year now gone. It is time for more positive changes and choices. I still need to grow up and stand up for my self. I am involved in my painting and writing and find it relaxing.
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